Tuesday, 27 July 2010

Holiday Update

We had an amazing time on holiday, still trying to get back on track with everything so no huge update. All I can say is that Langkawi is a beautiful island and everyone should visit! Unfortunately our camera broke down half way through the trip so many pics are blurry or unusable. Have included a couple of photos below from the holiday. Will do a proper catch up soon - promise!

Sailing the Andaman Sea

Kayaking through the mangroves

The beach at the resort

More beach - slightly overcast day but perfect conditions

Monkeys everywhere - these ones at a park...

... and these ones next to our room!

Shopping in KL - the Paul Frank store!!!

And yummy free afternoon tea at our KL hotel

Cocktails before the Usher concert!

Time to party!

The Petronas towers up close

Wednesday, 21 July 2010

Happy birthday to me!

Am in full-blown birthday mode - 24 today! I feel so old :-)

Tuesday, 13 July 2010

A sneak peek from our holiday

Still on holiday - it's our last day in Langkawi today, we fly to Singapore tomorrow morning for a couple more days of retail therapy before we get home on Friday night. We have had a great time but I am looking forward to being back in my own bed and cuddling my Charlie Hustle - have missed him so much!

Murrays birthday was yesterday and we went out for lunch at the Sheraton Langkawi, and I also sent Murray off in the morning to the day spa to have a body scrub, wrap and massage which he loved. Lucky boy - he got a car GPS and new kicks before we went on holiday as well! My birthday is coming up on the 21st so I hope he is taking notes!!!

Unfortunately my depression has reared its head while I've been away - thinking it is time that I really get sorted out. I don't want to wreck any chances of getting approved to adopt but I do think I should go and see a psych to get my medication worked out and get a proper plan to help me out.

Anyone enough of that for now - will see you all when I get back :-)

Sunday, 4 July 2010

Depression and illness

It's been a rough couple of days. I have been very excited about our trip away but the black dog has reared its head, making the last few days quite unbearable. For the last two weeks I have had a range of illnesses, from the flu, to gastro, to a cold. I woke up at 4am Saturday morning vomiting which wasn't pretty. I don't know where all the illness has come from, but I know that it has a terrible affect on my mental state.

Whenever I get ill, I get depressed. I recognise that it is depression and that it is linked to feeling sick and that I will get over it soon but when you are in that moment, it is so hard to get yourself through. Yesterday I was getting really agitated and depressed, I basically slept on the couch from 3pm until midnight because sleeping is the one relief that I get from the constant anxious and agitated feelings.

I do feel a lot better today, still a little anxious, but on the whole so much better than I was yesterday. It's amazing how much of a link there is between my physical and mental condition.

When I get back from my holiday, it is time for me to get back into shape - start eating healthily and heading back to the gym. I have a fair idea that part of my illness at least has been caused by not looking after myself and bingeing on whatever food I want to eat. I am also considering going back up 20mg on my anti-depressants, just to get myself through this winter patch.

Anyway, I am starting to pack for my holiday, the fogginess in my head is clearing so I am going to enjoy my husband and puppy, watch some footy on tv and look forward to my holiday away.