Saturday, 27 March 2010

Be careful what you wish for

I finally got my period after 84 days- and it is a b*tch. I am in agony and hormonal as a motherf*cker. That's a lot of swearing right there but it huuuuurrrttts. I want to curl up into a ball and cry like a baby.
I was having such a good weekend, I went to personal training, then went out to this pretty lake to meet friends for a picnic and walk. Things were going great, I popped all my picnic stuff and bag in the car and we went for a 15 minute walk. Only when we got back to my car, some bastard had smashed my passenger side window and stolen not only my handbag but the rest of the picnic stuff from my car!
I am so angry right now - thank goodness they didnt take the laptop or anything that was in clear sight in the back of the car. The area is very public which 100's of people around so they probably only had time to reach in and grab the stuff right there - a couple of cd's and the two bags.
Luckily I had taken my purse and phone with me on the walk otherwise they would be gone as well. Unfortunately my digital camera was in there, as well as a whole bunch of jewellery in my makeup pouch from the ball we went to last weekend.
I just want to catch a break, that's all. Surely that's not too much to ask for?

Friday, 26 March 2010

My little man

Having Charlie has enriched my life so much. He can be a complete and utter ratbag - weeing in the house when he is completely toilet trained, getting into my diary and eating pages from it, escaping through the front door when we get home and begging for food even though the guts has eaten far more then he should.
But he comes up and hugs me and lets me pat him; he goes for walks and runs with me, and licks the side of my face.

For now he is my baby, and I am going to enjoy him just like I would enjoy a human baby - with all the love in my heart.

Wednesday, 24 March 2010

Day 82 and counting

Now officially my longest ever period... which my body would just work for once. Premature menopause perhaps?

I've been pretty busy lately between work and uni, which has been a good distraction for me considering that we have done absolutely nothing fertility-wise.

I called our clinic yesterday to get an update on where we were at on the waiting list and have been told that they haven't progressed very far through the list and should now expect around May to get the call for a donor. Great.

It's not like I'm dying to jump back into treatment- in fact I'm quite enjoying my time out from it all - not worrying about whether I have taken my injection or taking time off work to do my egg collection. I'm slowly losing weight - down about 4.5kg at the moment, and I am genuinely enjoying my work and home life. But there is always that niggly feeling that something is missing.

Another friend had a baby on Tuesday, during the biggest storm that Perth has seen in decades. I am so proud of and for her - having the amazing home birth she wanted, but a part of me is screaming on the inside "When will it be my turn".

Sunday, 14 March 2010

Day 73

My body is f&*(ed up. My brother is f&*(ed up. Do I need to say anything else?

Friday, 5 March 2010

New hobby

One of my goals or 'resolutions' for the year was to learn how to sew. Nothing fancy but I would love to be able to make clothes that look nice and maybe some cushions and soft toys. So I have invested in a very nice sewing machine (with a contribution from my mother-in-law who believes every woman should have their own machine - thanks!), and have started collecting fabric.

I think my favourite part of the whole sewing process is choosing the fabric! I have already got quite the collection happening.

Some of my favourites so far!
Will post once I have finally finished some of my projects!

Thursday, 4 March 2010

Will it ever come!

I am on day 62 of my cycle with no end in sight. I thought my screwed-up cycles were past me. After all my last three cycles have been fairly normal length - 33, 28 & 28 days - so why on earth am I not ovulating now?

No real news for me, except that I finished my triathlon on Sunday. No pics as yet as I haven't got the energy to download them from the camera, but I managed to cut 6 minutes off my time which I am very happy with!