Tuesday, 24 May 2016

Day 13 - Ready to go

How things change in a couple of hours! I got the call from the clinic to say that I would have egg pick up on Thursday and it would be a freeze-all cycle for two reasons - risk of OHSS and also my progesterone levels had risen to 4 which can reduce pregnancy success as it can make the uterine lining hostile to embryos. Not the news I wanted to hear!

My concerns with this boil down to the fact that last cycle, the two embryos that we transferred would not have been considered freeze quality, so we would have had nothing. I would rather transfer two poor embryos than nothing, especially with this being the last fresh cycle we do. Of course if it looks like we have a couple of embryos growing to blastocyst, by all means freeze them all, but if they are poor quality, no way.

I relayed these concerns to the nurse and she spoke with my Dr who has turned into a freeze-all - question mark, which just means that we will assess how I respond after egg collection and what the embryo development is like before we make a final decision. Thank goodness for that.

With that change though, the Dr decided to bring forward egg collection to Wednesday. Unfortunately I wont have my Dr doing egg collection - this is Kevin Artley who I haven't met before, but I'm sure he is more than capable.

So last night at 10.15pm I had two trigger injections - the second one was to help the follicles mature that little bit more as they were a little on the small side on the scan yesterday. Egg Collection is booked in for 10.15am Wednesday morning, and I have arranged to be off work for the rest of the week. I'm feeling a bit off today from all of the drugs, and my ovaries feel so heavy and uncomfortable - I have to walk very slowly and gently because they can get quite painful if I forget!

I also checked in with the clinic about Murray's frozen sperm samples. The first sample was only 2% motility but the second sample had 5% motility which is a huge improvement on the 0.01% fresh sample last IVF. He will still give a fresh sample tomorrow which they will analyse and then choose the best sample to use to fertilise the eggs.

All systems are go!

Monday, 23 May 2016

Day 12

Another bad blood test experience today. I'm super sensitive to the needles, even when they use a smaller gauge needle than usual.

 

My eggs are looking good – I have 32 follicles greater than 10mm, and another 20+ smaller antral follicles. Saturday was 21 follicles greater than 10mm, so it's definitely moving along, although I wish we had bigger follicles rather than just lots! The lead follicle is 19mm

 

 

It looks like my doctor is only doing egg collections on Tuesdays and Thursdays so if egg collection is on Friday, I will have someone else doing it (but I confirmed it's not Dr T who I won't let anywhere near me!). Usually on the weekends, the patient's own doctor will do the egg collection, so I'm hoping that either I go on Thursday or Saturday.

Sunday, 22 May 2016

Day 11

My blood test yesterday morning was awful, lots of digging around to find a vein - my arm is pretty bruised up today. On the plus side, I have plenty of follicles as usual with about 20 larger than 10mm.   I had a day off from tests today, but I am back  at the clinic tomorrow morning for another blood test and scan. 

I started the Cetrotide injections on Saturday afternoon. Usually I have Orgalutran but they wanted to try something different. 

Hormone levels as of Sat morning are:
Estrogen - 10560
LH - 14
Progesterone - 4.3

Wednesday, 18 May 2016

Day 7

My first blood test and ultrasound was yesterday, and as usual, I have plenty of eggs growing. There were 10+ follicles one each ovary, although the ones on the left were a lot smaller (under 6mm) compared to the right ovary (under 10mm). My estrogen was 1090, and I have to go back tomorrow for another blood test, and then Friday for bloods and a scan.

I am so tired at the moment, I come home from home exhausted and fall into bed. Maybe it's the weather, or potentially just having a lot on my plate. I don't know. Off to have a nap before dinner.

Friday, 13 May 2016

Day 2 ~ ART #21 ~ IVF #10

There is nothing new under the sun. It certainly feels that way for me.

We have officially commenced the cycle – I took my Luveris and Puregon (150iu) this morning, and my first blood test and scan are on next Tuesday morning.

Thankfully the timing of the cycle has worked out okay – originally egg collection was going to line up with my Mum's 50th birthday party which would have been devastating!

Luckily my period held off a few extra days and it shouldn't interfere now.

 

I am ever hopeful, but also a realist. If it hasn't worked by now, it is unlikely to work. God performs miracles and I continue to pray that one happens, but I also believe that we are blessed either way.

The Bible says 'Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted (Matthew 5:3). Not Blessed are those who have everything going well in their lives.

We already know the pain of infertility, but permanent childlessness is going to be an adjustment and something that as much as I try and anticipate and prepare for it, I will never be ready for the feelings that are going to come at the end of this cycle, regardless of outcome.

 

Wednesday, 13 April 2016

Getting ready to cycle

We are slowly gearing up for this last IVF cycle. Murray is on school holidays for the next two weeks, and I had a day of annual leave which was fortuitous because I have had a nasty cold or flu bug this last couple of days.

We went to the clinic this morning and Murray gave his second sperm sample for use in IVF, and I picked up all my medications. It's all starting to get very real.

Our pastor prayed for us today about us having children. We were meeting to formally become members of our new church that we have been attending this past year since we moved house, and one of the things we talked about was what a blessing it has been for Murray and I to have had 12 years together, 10 married, to build our relationship before kids have arrived. While parts of this have been awful and depressing, in the light days, I can see that there are also benefits, and I am grateful for those.

Tuesday, 29 March 2016

Easter Refreshment

This Easter has been such a blessing to me. I have been able to take a much needed break from work - 5 whole days! I spent time with nearly all of my family, and also some one-on-one time with Murray. We went to Church on Good Friday and Easter Sunday and were blessed with catching up with friends we hadn't seen in a while.

My soul feels refreshed.

Saturday, 12 March 2016

Myoinositol research

Part of the last hoorah effort is Myo-inositol. While there isn't definitive proof that it helps, the early research definitely shows it as a positive, and there is no down side to it.

I've included some information from different sources about what it does and how they think it helps.

Firstly, it actually used to be known as B6. Then the powers that be changed their definitions of what a vitamin actually is (something that the body does not naturally produce), and therefore as the body can produce inositol, it was removed from that list.

PCOS Diva has a really good post on Myo-inositol which is worth reading.


Effects of myo-inositol supplementation on oocyte's quality in PCOS patients: a double blind trial.
This trial showed that the number of eggs and then embryos transferred was increased when myo-inositol was taken.

Myo-Inositol in Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome - Supplement acts as a natural insulin sensitizer in PCOS patients
It acts as an insulin-sensitizing agent - perfect for PCOS patients who have insulin resistance like me

For me it is worth a shot. It was $28 a bottle which will last for a month. Fingers crossed it makes a difference.

Monday, 7 March 2016

Family weekend

I went to my Oma's funeral on Friday. While of course it was sad, it ended up being a really lovely weekend with the extended family. The service was beautiful, I caught up with my aunts, uncles and cousins, as well as my Dad and brother, and we got to see a lot of the places that either my Oma and Opa lived, or where my Dad spent time when he was younger.There was also a lot of looking at old photos and sharing memories.


Monday, 22 February 2016

My Oma


My Oma passed away this morning aged 92.
I'm sad but I am also happy that she is finally in heaven with my Opa.
Rest in peace Oma.

Sunday, 21 February 2016

Generosity

My husband works with the most amazing group of people.

Last week he wasn't feeling so great after our IVF appointment, and a few people could see that he had stuff on his mind. When he told them about the chance to freeze his samples prior to IVF but that it would cost $600, they were sympathetic and really lovely to him. Nothing unusual there, they are a great bunch of people.

Then on Friday, his boss and another colleague came up to him and handed him a little red envelope, like what they give out for Chinese New Year. In it was over $700 in cash! His workmates had gotten together and decided they wanted to help to take the stress away and had come up with the money themselves!

I mean, who does that! Their amazing generosity, completely unexpected, has made something that was going to be a struggle, into something that could really increase our chances with our last IVF cycle. I have cried several times since at what an incredible gift this has been.

There is going to be lots of homemade cake in the future for staff morning teas!

Friday, 19 February 2016

No babies places in 6 months

I spoke with the adoption agency earlier this week to find out any news on the adoption front. As usual they couldn't tell me anything, but they did say that no babies had been placed since I last spoke with them in October. At that point they hadn't placed any babies for some time either, so it has been at least 6 months since a placement was made.

My hopes are low at this point