Sunday, 29 November 2015

Day 25 - 5dp3dt

I'm ready to test and just be done with it all. I know nothing will show up this early, and I will hold out for a while yet but I just want this over with. If I'm not pregnant, I don't want to be filled with hope that is then going to hurt me further.

6 more days until the blood test.

Friday, 27 November 2015

Day 23 - Waiting

This part of the process is always hard. Even though the logical side of me says that the odds are unlikely (I've guessed around 10-15% success), it doesn't stop my brain and heart running off together each night, thinking about twins and baby names and why sports they might play when they are older. 

I should know better, but can you do when your mind wants to play games with you. Murray and I are being strong in our faith that whatever the outcome, it will be right for us. 

Tuesday, 24 November 2015

Day 20 - Double embryo transfer

We had two day 3 embryos transferred today - a 5 cell and a 7 cell embryo.

While it doesn't look super promising, the fact that we made it to transfer is enough for me right now. The three that divided kept growing overnight, and I have to call back this afternoon to see if we will have any to freeze, but it is unlikely.

My blood test is Saturday December 5th. I'll try not to test beforehand, but it is my work Christmas party the day before so I probably will on the Friday so I can have a drink if I feel like it.

So that's it - our last egg collection and transfer. Good luck little embies.

Monday, 23 November 2015

Day 19- 3/14 survive

Unfortunately overnight only 3 of the 14 fertilised eggs divided into embryos- the rest have arrested (died/stopped growing).

We are going in for our transfer at 11.45 tomorrow and will have 2 x day 3 embryos transferred, as long as they are still dividing.

I'm upset but there isn't much I can do about it so trying not to dwell on it.

Sunday, 22 November 2015

Day 18 - Fertilisation results

I'm out of the post-up fogginess from yesterday so can finally sit down and write about how the day went. As you know, we got 17 eggs which is a really good result - I wanted between 10 and 20, and really didn't want more than 20 as that puts me at risk of ovarian hyperstimulation. 17 is pretty much my sweet spot!

We did get some not so great news though. After all of Murray's amazing sperm test results of late, his sample on the day was very poor. Only 0.01% motile sperm was available, which is pretty much non-existent. The embryologist was pretty shocked by the result considering how well he had been doing, but prepared us that we may not get great fertilisation results. We are using ICSI though so obviously that works in our favour.

I rang the clinic this afternoon for our fertilisation results and we had 14 eggs fertilised! 1 egg wasn't suitable for injection, so of the 16 injected, 14 came through which is such a good result.

I had a bit of a chat with the embryologist about options going forward, as the clinic doesn't seem to have all my records from my previous clinic when we used Murray's sperm. We have a history of embryo's arresting from day 3-5, whereby we can have lots still going at day 3 and then nothing by day 5. I'm thinking that a double embryo transfer at day 3 might be our best option, just in case there is nothing that makes it to blastocyst. I don't know, I'm happy to be guided by Dr Williams, and they do allow day 4 transfers which could be a good compromise. I just want to make sure that we get a transfer after all of this.

Photo of me just before egg collection - trying to stay calm!

Saturday, 21 November 2015

Day 17- Egg Collection

Just a quick post that egg collection went well today. I got 17 eggs and am doing okay

Friday, 20 November 2015

Day 16 - Be calm my anxious heart

I'm trying not go down the what if path. I am trying to trust God, and let his will be done. And I know that after all this time the odds are low of success. I know and I try and I trust. But I am also scared that this is it. Our last chance.

Thursday, 19 November 2015

Day 15 - Ready to (pull the) trigger!

My Egg Collection has been booked in for this Saturday at 11.20am. My blood test this morning showed my estrogen at 10510, LH at 3 and Progesterone at 3.4, so we are all good to go. I wish I had another ultrasound so I could see if they have grown anymore but I have to trust that they are all there waiting to be extracted.

So what happens next…

  • Stop my Puregon/Orgalutran/Luveris injections – yay! My stomach is feeling very tender!
  • Take 1 x Ranitadine tablet tonight – this is because I have had a gastric sleeve
  • Take my antibiotics tablets 2 x Azithromycin (500mg)
  • Tonight at 11.20pm take my Ovidrel trigger injections
  • Nothing to eat or drink after 11.20pm. The extra long fasting time is because of the gastric sleeve. They need to make sure that my stomach is completely empty as food and water can regurgitate while under anesthetic which can then be inhaled into the wind pipe and lungs, so they are super careful.
  • Another antacid at 5am with a teaspoon of water
  • Check in to Concept at 10am
  • Egg Collection!
  • Hopefully be released mid-afternoon
So that’s it! Fingers crossed we get a good number of eggs, they fertilise well, and then grow, grow, grow! I don’t want to put a number on the amount of eggs I want to get, but I definitely have an idea of what I would like to get.

Wednesday, 18 November 2015

Day 14 - keep growing follicles!

My follicles are continuing to grow, but they are just not ready to ovulate yet.
As of this morning I have 25 follicles plus more antral follicles growing! I even managed to get a picture of my ultrasound so you can see the little eggs growing!
1 x 20mm
1 x 16mm
3 x 15mm
1 x 14mm
5 x 13mm
9 x 12mm
2 x 11mm

10+ <10mm p="">

Follicles on the ultrasound
My estrogen is at 9019, LH is 2 and progesterone is 2.1.
I am having another blood test tomorrow morning, and from there we expect to trigger tomorrow night and go to egg collection on Saturday!

Three injections a day is wearing very thin though – my stomach looks (and feels!) like a pin cushion. The Luveris injection is a touch itchy but not as bad as the Orgalutran.  We had a panicky moment this moment when I couldn’t find the Luveris medication anywhere – eventually I found them in the bin! Murray had done a clean up in the early hours of the morning and was so distracted that he thought they were empty and threw them out! Luckily they were fine and I was still able to use them. Final blood test tomorrow – I don’t want my estrogen to go any higher!

Latest follicle count

Monday, 16 November 2015

Day 12 - Growing lots of follicles

Today's scan showed that my follicles are still growing and there are lots of them! 17 follicles 10mm or larger, with another 16+ follicles smaller than 10mm. The lead follicle is 16mm currently, so egg collection looks like it will be on Friday or Saturday. 

My estrogen is at 5401 which I think is at the high end, but considering the number of follicles I have, it makes sense. My LH has dropped to 1 and so my doctor has added a LH medication to keep egg quality good. I had a Luveris injection this afternoon, and I will be doing one of those each morning until my ovulation trigger injection. The limited research I've done this afternoon seems to show it as a positive step, so I am happy with that. 

I have another blood test and scan on Wednesday to see where we are at, and fingers crossed we will get a trigger time and egg collection time! I'm feeling generally quite positive with this cycle. Murray and I have spoken several times about what happens if it doesn't work, and while we no doubt will have strong emotions, we are trying to keep everything in perspective.

Sunday, 15 November 2015

10th wedding anniversary - Renewing our vows

On Saturday, we celebrated our tenth wedding anniversary by renewing our vows in front of our friends and family.
Professional photos are in the works but I've posted some snapshots from the day.

We held a picnic in Queens Gardens next to the cricket ground, and even though it was hot (40 degrees!), it ended up being lovely and breezy in the shade. Nearly 100 people came along for our picnic lunch and ceremony.

It was really special for us, and something we have planned for a while. While we believe marriage is for life, we also believe in choosing to be together and actively commuting to our marriage. We'd like to renew our vows every ten years (next time I think a tropical island by ourselves sounds nice!) but we'll see what happens in 2025!

The last ten years have been hard, not on our relationship, but just some of the situations we have gone through. That we have come through so strongly- this ceremony was to reflect that as well as our growth and maturity in our relationship.

Day 11

8 follicles bigger than 10mm at the latest scan on Saturday morning. Estrogen was at 2600 which is a nice rise, LH 4 and I can't remember the progesterone but it was low which is fine.

My Day 9 estrogen level was only 990 so I'm glad it has increased a bit. I'm only on 100iu pure hon which is quite low so very grateful my body is responding! I also started taking my orgaultran injection this morning- not the most pleasant of injections (I get so itchy afterwards!) but it's not too painful so that's good.

Off for another blood test and scan tomorrow morning.